"Your actions are birthed from a place of fear, or a place of love. If you do something that is fear based, even if it is disguised at first, it's darkness will eventually show up somewhere down the road".
- AA
I found these words interesting and true - when we do something - what is the real intention behind it?
When you give to someone - whether that be a gift, your energy or your words - is it from a place of sincerity, of no expectations ... of love? Or, when you dig deeper, is it actually because you want to be liked or accepted, or expect something in return?
First, let's talk about the act of giving. I consider myself an extremely generous person and I admit, that at various times in my life, I have given (with the delusion that the act was coming from a pure place), when really, it was calculated or with condition.
In other words, the act was fear based. And, at the end, I would feel "taken", even victimized, if the energy/favour wasn't reciprocated .
I've learned there is a lot of joy and fulfillment that comes from giving when it comes from a place of love and sincerity. Meaning, whether that be the initiation of communication, a gift or an act of service - you hold no expectation of what follows.
You don't feel fulfilled from what they give back or how they react - you feel fulfilled because you know you helped or made someone feel a little more at ease, cared for or loved in some way.
That, which is an act that is love based never comes with the feeling of being gypped.
In no way am I saying one should keep giving to energy vampires, constant takers or those who encompass a conflicting value set in regards to generosity and sharing.
Nor am I saying that you should not be selective with who you share your energy with. I believe those who cannot give love are unable to truly receive it.
It is like giving to a bottomless pit that is always hungry for more. I believe in being kind to others, perfect strangers included, but when it involves investing a substantial part of your heart, soul and energy, know that when you are depleted, you lack the resources needed for your own self-nourishment.
Next, I'd like to talk about control - which is a major ingredient in many acts and decisions we choose to make.
Often, control is mistakenly equated to empowerment. I'm talking about the kind of control that is rooted in insecurity. And out of that Pandora's Box, is where jealousy and the "need" to exert power over another is born.
You see this in many relationships - where lack of trust, faith and security creates a power struggle.
We all have insecurities, it's a part of being human, but we can either let those insecurities rule us or not.
The more you try to mask your insecurity by exerting a contrived control, the more insecurity and fear based your actions become.
Call it karma, but at some point, in some form, love will breed love, and negativity and breed negativity.
